Monday, June 30, 2008
hey
today sch started at 9 wif presentations again
only left exactly 2 weeks before the torment from attachment. to rub in to the torment, its gonna b a freakin month! yay!!
so today was pharmaco mock exam,
n i think i did superbly badly somehow. gdness
ANYWAY, hot bod n i like chatted over msn. =D
but somehow, hes replies r really boring.. such a turn off for me
mai told me perhaps he was shy n stuffs concerning shy issue
but as for me, crush over hot bod is game over. if hes online n he talk to me, i will talk to him.
if not, forget it sha!so wore my black shorts n my ten bucks top from bugis tat i bought years ago along wif converse shoes n the sling bag includin lappie.
looks geeky i think n abit ridiculous somehow? i don think i suit this sporty outfit.
im better off wif those girly tops n shorts.
it kinda show my personality?so talkin bout personality, im very vocal. i think i scare guys off! haha
n talkin bout guys, my point of view on them---
boys suckssheesh! oh my, i think i prefer my life this way being off
single n free to mingle! hahabut then again, the hurt the bastard caused me sometimes affect my cognitive n behaviour big time. but somehow im glad
i don fall into depression?so rating on my well being: 7.5/10 =)
oh god, i noe ur always there when i need u so much
n now i need u to help me to give the rating on my well being
perfect ten!nowdays, i have been talking to myself alot. haha
ok pple its not meant to b sumtin freaky!!but i somehow feel great mumbling to myself n give comments towards myself on ways to improve my looks, body n anything tat concerns how pple view me. haha
i guess im abit too paranoid over these
FACE IS THE THING issue
i cant believe im consuimg 2 tablets of poison every single mrn n nvr misses a dose so far. im like so hooked to it thinkin its my path of beauty n regain confidence in my looks.
am i silly or wat?but then again, who gives a freakin damn bout this shit.
its all about me, n all about me n how pple see me
external really matters
i don think guys wanna talk to gurls when they hav endless pimples n to rub it in, the figure is equally bad?
oh sheesh, im fighting tru my jouney on regained beauty!! hahaha
so im givin myself literally abt a year to get a sexy figure, n flawless skin (somehow)
hahaha
right now, drown into the pool of projects.
endless projects. damn
n i love the song on my blog rite now- better in time
thanks mai for puttin the song in ur blog previously n i got really hooked up wif it.
the chorus of it, really touched my heart
it goes like this
"Thought i couldnt live without you,
It's gonna hurt when it heals too, oh yea
(it'll all get better in time)
Even though i really loved you
Im gonna smile cause i deserve to
(it'll all get better in time)"
toodles
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