Sunday, June 15, 2008
weekends
so yesterday i went to the botanical garden wif suhana,eunice n daphne
i was not in the mood, so just lazed around thinking bout things
got home by 7, chatted wif jas over the phone
thanks jas for being a great company
today i woke up around 10, stared at blank space
lately, im just not in the mood to function
n i hate this feeling
i noe he moved on long time ago, but i hav idea y im pinning hopes
its crystal clear to me hes not bothered, but i hav no idea y im still pinning hopes
i need to wake up from this, but i just cant
i need to hibernate to this mood perhaps for a couple of months before waking up
oh my, im just so clueless bout things.
so made appointment wif the senior consultant of the dermatology
im gonna start takin back oral medication for my pimples
n its highly toxicated.. no risk, no gain
its sick, but cant help it for the sake of beauty
i think i lost weight, hav not been eating well, so im kinda slim! haha
oh god, i just need to be pushed back to the center track of the road
someone plz push me
even if it takes couple of months, just pushed me!
the meeting will b on thursday, n i noe hes not interested
its sparklin clear to me tat hes not bothered
but y sha? y must i do this to myself?
this relationship taught me alot
n im so scared to get involved again
i don wish to go tru this initial stage of break up if things dont work again
oh my, i hate to be involved n produce such result which is break up
oh my, the hurt n pain.. its so excrutiating.. indeed it is..
my soul, plz calm n think right..
the mind is the power..
but when comes to matters like this, logic is not the judgement
matters of the heart, its so difficult to explain
emotions revolved around the judgement of the heart like how the planets orbit round the universe
how i wish, i dont have feelings.
emotions r scary like nitemares tat stop u from sleeping in the nite
the powerful mind is affected by the revolving emotions
they revolved at high speed tat ur oblivious to the surroundings
oh emotions, spare me from all these
im just a human wif overwhelmed thoughts
Labels: judgement of the heart
perspective
9:44 PM
